Alden Ellis

Since Bryce came home, I have taken the midnight feeding and it has been a blast.  For the past couple of nights, I have gotten him out of his crib and just held him until he awakes himself and fusses a little bit.  During those times, I have been able to pray over him, hold him, look into his face, and snuggle with him!  It has been awesome, especially since the house is quiet and it is just him and I.

Well, the other night, before I was going to feed him, I went to change his diaper and he was wiggling all over the place.  He is normally active, but he was especially active during this time and it was making it very difficult to get his diaper on…every time I would get to a place to strap on his diaper, how would move his leg to make it impossible.  It was like he was fighting me, so I couldn’t take care of him.

This became very frustrating for me because I wanted to fix the problem and I know Bryce was getting frustrated by the level of his cry.  All I wanted to do was to take care of him.  I keep on thinking to myself…”Stop Fighting Me!! I want to help you and take care of you!!”

It was during that moment that God spoke to me, “That what I have been trying to tell you for sometime.”

There are times when I have fought God and made my life very difficult. I know that God is just telling me to STOP fighting him! God desires my obedience and submission, nothing else!

“God, thank you for speaking to me in anyway that you see neccessary, may I always submit to you and be obeident to your voice and ways!!”